Day 2: Meaning behind your blog name

What's the meaning behind my blog name? That's a very good question. It can be taken in so many different contexts I wouldn't even know where to begin to explain it...but I'll try.

Finding Euphoria is what I have declared to be my new life mantra. The older I get the easier it is to see the important things in life, like my family and my friends who mean the world to me. At the end of the day the fact that I have to go buy new mascara doesn't matter as much as whether or not I have talked to my parents today and told them I love them. I used to take so many things and people for granted when I was younger, and it took me up until the past few years to realize that. By finding euphoria I want to be able to cherish each moment I spend with a loved one as much as possible, because if not, then I would just be wasting my time. I miss my family and friends whenever I am not around them, especially my parents. I miss them all the time.

Finding Euphoria also relates to what I want to do with my life. For years all I have ever wanted was to be a prosecuting attorney so I could help people or to become a journalist and travel throughout the Middle East and Europe. Technically both of those are still careers I want to pursue, but at what cost? I want to be a mother someday, more than anything and the thought of having to sacrifice spending time with my family for a job is not something I would be willing to do. This is also not to say that I couldn't take the appropriate time off, I suppose I can really do anything I want to. Although the whole thought of having a family and having an actual career other than school or my part-time jobs gives me a bit of a panic attack.

Finding Euphoria applies to being able to find happiness in a partner. It seems that I have the worst luck picking specimens from the male gender to be in my life, and it always ends up backfiring on me. At first thought I am prone to saying that I don't believe in love, and I can't picture being so in love with someone that I would make the decision to marry them. But then I look at my parents, who have been happily married for 23 years and they are just as in love as they were from the start. The majority of my friends have parents who are either separated or whose parents are not as happy as they once were in their marriage, so I am thankful that I was chosen to be my parent's daughter and see what it is really like to love someone. My Dad says all the time that men my age don't know the proper way to treat a woman, they have no drive for anything anymore and I couldn't agree more. Whenever this topic comes to my mind I say a silent prayer that I will be blessed with someone like my Dad when I am ready to find The One and settle down.

This was really just a bunch of ramblings, as most of my thoughts and posts are but it was the best I could do to break down the meaning of my blog name. I hope that helps to give some insight into my life a little more!